For days you have been clingy, sleeping less, grizzly, grumpy. The only thing that can make you settle are my cuddles.
I was annoyed. I needed to get the washing on. To pump. To get dressed before the nurse comes. To shower.
I dutifully took you in my arms, my crying babe.
And each time as I stroked your head, as I whispered 'shhhhh' in your ear, as I found my mother instinct to calm you down, my frustration left me and I was home again.
These moments, with you in my arms, they are what I longed for, for so long. And they are not forever. I am so aware that these snuggly baby days are falling away like sand through my fingers.
And so, I let go of annoyance, of chores, of things that will never be remembered in years to come.
And I hold you close to me, my cherub, let you sink into my arms, and just be.
I breathe in your baby smell, feel your sweet breath flutter against me, listen to your baby yawns, grunts and groans.
I look at you, my baby, and see how beautiful you are, and how precious this time is.
And I snuggle you even closer.
My sweet girl, I love you more than words could express.
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